Tuesday, June 30, 2009


My Bff Diana is M.I.A. I don't know what she has but I'm sure if she pulls it out she'll be fine again and we can all have a G.N.O. (Girls Night Out). She has been missed...

Monday, June 29, 2009

What's the matter with ten dollars?

The weekend came and went and I must say it was very pleasant. The only thing missing is Serenity. I miss her so much. It's never ever just easy when her dad picks her up for more than a weekend. She called me today and I got filled with a warm feeling. After missing her so much it felt great to hear from her. Husband and I relaxed and Leland behaved himself. We read books, laughed, he combed my hair I rubbed his back. I felt better. I baked toll house cookies on Sunday.

All last week and starting with this one I have been on a Married with Children binge. Last month it was I love Lucy. I wasn't so much into the whole show (and I REALLY LOVE LUCY) it was Fred Mertz roles. He was my latest obsession last month. He has some classic come backs that had me laughing for a good minute. For instance;
Ricky Ricardo: What do you know about rice? Fred Mertz: Well, I had it thrown at me on one of the darkest days in my life. & Lucy Ricardo: How much do you want to bet? Fred Mertz: Ten dollars. Ethel Mertz: Well what`s the matter with twenty dollars? Ricky Ricardo: What`s the matter with thirty dollars? Lucy Ricardo: What`s the matter with fifty dollars? Fred Mertz: What's the matter with ten dollars? Yea that's classic and no longer seen in our times.

Any how, Husband came home an hour early and it was so pleasant to see him. He said he was going to get off an hour early all week and get Friday off so
that instantly made me giddy. When he comes home I compose myself as if I wasn't craving him all day. Now he's my healthy Obsession!

Friday, June 26, 2009

June Tombs

June 25th 2009 was a sad sad day. Two major celebrities died. Somehow the death of Michael Jackson effected me more emotionally than I ever would have imagined. I remember my sister renting the thriller video when i was 6 and we would practice the dance moves for hours until we got it right. My sister was murdered 10 years ago so it brought back a lot of memories. Being that we were great fans of his music. It also puzzles me how much of the same people who made jokes and practically crucified him are now "mourning". Humans are bizarre.

Monday, June 22, 2009

New Monday

Here I am after all the drama between Husband and I and Serenity and her party. The party turned out better than I expected. I got a few surprise guest that made it awesome. I haven't seen my cousin Jacob in a very long time. Maybe a year. And Richard he barely started to come around, being we are practically neighbor's.
Out of everything I am glad that Husband and I settled our differences without a huge blow out verbal fight or a deadly domestic dispute. Although what he did was like a lit cigarette to my flesh, this time he did not deny it. He admitted to it and did what he had to do to make things right. I can respect that. Had he denied and lied I would have been hostile. Being that he was mature, remorseful, and honest, I got to see the full picture, put myself in his shoes and analyze that.
Mayra and her family was at the party and it was like a breath of fresh air to see them. No other words can express. Like Josh said, I feel we're really close now than ever and I feel like we're family when we're together.

I feel optimally Grateful.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Wednesday Schmensday

Oh, Husband...why did you brake my heart? Can't you realize that I adore you? What makes you think that it's okay when I adore you? You have no idea the solitude you put my soul through. I just want to be left alone. I want to find the most loneliest mountain and crawl into a cave. I came to acknowledge that I can't keep you safe, I can't love you like this. I can't trust you, I can't be Mrs. husband when you have no dignity for what we've built with Love. No tools or wrenches. No latter's, no construction. Just Love.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Tuesday Thoughts

Yesterday Serenity and I were reading our comments on Yahoo Answers and were giggling so hard. I think she is going to be a very funny girl with a great personality. I love everything about Serenity. Shes so far from being an out lashing and selfish kid. Later at night when Husband went to bed I went to the kitchen to make him lunch for tomorrow. I realized that there wasn't enough to get him though 9 hours of Engineering. So I made him 3 large breakfast burritos with so much love. While I was in there I was surprised to see Leland asleep in his room on his car bed!! Finally! Husband and I can finally get a good night of sleep since we're not cramped in a queen bed.

Husband is Mimis

Husband is sleeping and gently snoring. I can watch him sleep. I can watch him sleep almost all night. Also at night I love to touch his body, stroke his back, and smell his large broad strong shoulders. I don't ever want to know what life would be like with out Josh. He is in love with me & I am in love with him. Hurray!